This

"it feels so good to get rid of things that kinda mattered once. i mean, what’s the point of keeping them??? just cause it mattered once doesn’t mean it’s still making a difference… if anything it’s just weighing you down"
-Hales

out of all the people, its me. this applys to many different things. i think that i should slow down, back down before i do/think/say something stupid and regrettable. but i don't want to. i shouldn't be stopping myself from feeling this way. i should be able to. but i know that it would lead to anything good. will it?
i'm probably over thinking it as usual.
as usual, i think things that never are true. like how i think of how things are now. how i think/feel about this
as usual i'm always contradicting myself. always asking 'what if'
that quote/saying said earlier by hayley williams is how i should be thinking. just let everything go, even though it doesn't seem right now, or at all.
so instead of asking 'what if' in the future, i should get it all out now.
what if i never did what i did
what if things were different. will it be better or worse? will i be feeling different?
no regrets. no what if's

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current song: moment i said it - imogen heap