hello, i'm chesca

from my blog before, i said that i want this to be something where i can look back on and remember who i am now. in saying that, i'm writing for the future me.
hello, future me. this is teenage you :D
how are things? married? divorced? single? kids?
something must be wrong for you to be reading your old blogs. cos right now i see myself only reading this when i need to know who i was in order to know who i am or who i will become
i want you to remember how you were when you were a teenager.
music is(still, i hope) one of your greatest passion. if your not into music that much, then i am very angry at you. right now, i don't see myself playing guitar or piano. but i'll change that. and for some stupid reason you stopped. heres a reminder of how music was a big part of your life now. it seemed that music got you through most of the shit that happens. most of your family and friend problems. right now you have a new guitar you got from your parents on your 15th birthday and with it you got a campo (ahh i know yeah :D), tuner, all the works. so in saying that, it should help me be more active in my guitar playing. well i'm working on it. although you have big dream and goals, and you know what you wanna do, where you see yourself, its not happening as you thought it would. yeah you did do something about it like start to learn how to play piano and guitar, sing in front of people but then stuffed it up horribly, audition for things -didn't make if but trying again- you still don't see that its going anywhere. does that make sense? in other words, your not sure it's enough. you see yourself as a very deep person at times. someone who is complicated. but only when your by yourself. with people your different. its not a bad thing or a good thing. its just something that you don't need to share to everyone i guess.
right now, your waiting for heroes to come one. the bestest show ever! but because your like sucks, you wont be able to watch it tonight, so you have to watch it tomorrow.
right now, you are really interesting into going to uni to take up hotel/resturant manager. but then your thinking whether or not it will be a waste of education. but its uni right, so education is essential? but it doesnt seem like that. either way, your very interested. i think
hmm thinking about it, i'm gonna turn my blog into a virtual scrapbook with photos, videos? i'm excited just thinking about how exciting it will be in the future reading this.
writing this just made you forget about everything that happened around you, making tomorrow turn out how you didn't want it to. thanks

current mood: excited for the future? blahh
current song: come on, come all - all time low