this will be the last mistake that i will ever want to do

then:
embarrassment.disappointment.anger.annoyed.frustration.

now:
determination.
i am determined to show that i can and will do better.
that "event" will be forever in my mind and will be there to remind me everytime i play

i stuffed up.
much so that i couldnt continue the song.
but the worse part is that people will think that i can't do it but i can. thats why i'm determined.