my first step

so i've taken my first step into becoming the person i want to be
by boosting my confidence and playing guitar in front of people .
it'll be hard but i wanna show myself that i have it in me to perform well
i'm more nervous than ever cos its my first time doing something like this
for some reason i dont have trouble performing infront of people if im not alone obviously
so i'm gonna sing Paramore's "My Heart" or at least try
i would have felt even more better and less nervous if i was able to sing "The Authors" by VersaEmerge but i can't find out how to take the vocals out of it. bummer.
it was a big step for me to even audition.
by the end of it, i was hyperventilating alot and i ended up drinking most of my water
i'm not only scared that i'm gonna stuff up, or play the wrong note but scared that i'm gonna drop my pick. how stupid does that sound
but while i was practising it keeps falling out, so i need to practise alot more .
grrr i'm getting sweating just typing it
so i'm gonna perform at my school's open day on sunday so wish me luck

ps. http://www.friendsorenemies.com/cp/fobtrail/
that has gotten me back into the world of video games.
i suggest you play it unless you don't wanna get stuck playing at it for 2 hours

current mood: tired
current song: check yes juliet - we the kings